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Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Hatiku berbunga-bunga....

Masa tengah dinner sesorang tadi tetiba hp aku berbunyik. Dalam hati dok pikir gak sape le yg call memalam nih? Rerupanya, cinta hati aku yg call. Dia kata dia nak balik mlm nih! Yeah!!!!! Hatiku tetiba berbunga-bunga....mood pun lebih baik and aku senyum jek manjang! ye la...sape le yg tak happy bila cinta hati nak balik?!

Betullah kata pepatah Inggeris....suami kita tu is 'my other half'. Sebabnye suami or isteri sebagai pelengkap pada pasangan satu lagi. So, bila my other half takde.....kita tend to rasa mandom aje. Sebab tak de kawan nak bercerita or nak bergurau or even nak bergaduh! But for me....yg paling penting aku hilang kawan nak mengadu. Mengadu perihal anak-anak....perihal keje.....hmmm...memang le aku dok ngan mak ayah....tapi bila dah kawin and ada family sendiri, takkan le nak mengadu lagi ngan they all kan?!

Sebenornye bila dah jadi husband and wife, ada satu kuasa pscyhic yg kita boleh berhubung dengan hubby kita bila dia jauh. Mende ni selalu le berlaku kat aku and hubby aku. Macam mlm ni.....sebenornye lepas balik keje tadi...badan rasa tak bape sihat macam nak demam selsema. Aku pulak kalau time sakit selalu ngadu kat hubby aku sebab dia akan jadi Dr. peribadi aku. So, since he's not around....aku dok teringat sesangatnye kat dia....and really hope kalau dia balik.....alangkah baiknye. Tup!tup! dia call kata nak balik. Itulah yg aku kata kuasa pscychic yg Allah bantu aku sampaikan kat hubby aku. Alhamdulillah....Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yg aku rasa...tak kisah le kalu dia just balik sekejap pun asalkan time aku demam dia ada disisi. That's what a husband for anyway....

Saturday, April 26, 2008

Only me and my 4 munchkins...

Life hadn't been so...so..boring like today...and I anticipate that It'll be even more boring tomorrow! Hmm...suddenly I feel so moody, so low inside because my husband has gone back to KL to study! Well, I reckon I should've been more supportive...more understanding and more independant! But actually, I didn't! Honestly, I really don't like the idea of him going back to KL just because he needs some space to study. It's so...so...unfair! Leaving me with the kids all weekends where we supposedly been enjoying our weekend with tha kids together and nothing else matter!

Phew! I really have to admit that his studies matters him the most! Ok....just be patient! It will be ok..and things will be back to normal in 2 weeks time!!! Uarghhh!!! 2 weeks is long enough for me. But it's his final exam ok...if he did not pass this exam...then out you go from the masters program and you (simanis) will never have the chance to become a specialist wife ok! And it's going to take you like about 20 years time before you can resign your job contentiously!

Just to console myself.....I pray that my husband will pass his exams including 'viva' and will become a dedicated and motivated paediatric surgeon soon! If God's willing....Amin.

Monday, April 21, 2008

Menyingkap maksud D' Kompress!

Come undone by Duran Duran. hhehe....thn bila punye lagu le tuh! Aku pun tak hingat. But what I do remember is D'Kompress was inspired by this so called group from UK. D'Kompress tu nama group aku masa zaman tgh terjal....matriculation year 1993/1994. Peh! dah 14 years passed. And selama tu lah jugak aku and another 3 members of D'Kompress dah berkawan. In fact, we r more than friend now! We're closed families....except for one of the members yg dah terlalu jauh nun di T'ganu. But absence makes the heart grow fonder dun they?

Camne we got nama D'Kompress? Wakakkaka!!! I bet you wouldn't want to hear it if I were you. Ianya berkait rapat dengan aktiviti mengompress! Like I used to explain to those yg eagerly wanted to know back then. And everybody will like asking back frowningly....mengompress? hahahha.....only god knows how did we laugh at their question!

Hanya bermula dengan sebotol ubat jerawat cap Indon yg ahmattt la popular ketika itu.....D'Kompress menjadi popular seantero SSMJ. Indahnye persahabatan ketika itu. Tiada rasa cemburu atau iri hati atau rasa apa2 je lah yg bebudak umo 18 thn patut rasa time tu dikalangan ahlinye yg berempat itu. Kami laksana saudara kembar empat yg sentiasa ke hulu ke hilir bersama. Kalau boleh nak makan roti 'cinnamon roll' yg sebijik 50 sen tu pun berkongsi!

Camne lah pulak aku bole ter flash back zaman matrics dulu ek? Ada ke disebabkan seseorg telah mentioned something about cermin pecah? hmm...mungkin juga le. Tak aku nafikan....kalau ditanya zaman bila yg paling aku treasure my whole life...the answer would be during my matriculation years. kadang2 rasa tak puas hati kenapa le matriks just 2 thn jek? Tak bole ke buat 5 thn ke? Ko gilo ko apo?

Oh ye..berbalik pada D'Kompress tadi....(byk no iklan le!) Yang aku pasti.....seyakinnya pasti....(mcm aku kenal ini lirik) ubat jerawat tu udah tidak digunakan lagi sekarang ini ya...bapak-bapak...ibu...ibu...tuan punye ubat jerawat tu pun mukanye dah pulih dari jerawat sepenuhnya! wakakakka......I bet tuan punye ubat jerawat tu tak dtg blog aku ni! Nahas lagi aku kang! wakakakka....tapi aku tau...kalu dia baca pun dia takkan mare.....sbb dia mmg bz manjang! tak sempat nak email aku inikan pulak nak baca blog!

Syoknye masa dok kat SSMJ thn 93/94 dulu....sbb we all jadi kakak n abang paling tua dlm itu sekolah. And One of D'Kompress member tu pulak ketua wakil pompuan tuk bebudak matriks. Ala cam jadi head prepek pompuan le. So, GK and SGK(salah guna kuasa) tahap gaban le! habis roti utk cecah sardin brefas we all kerjakan! Tak cukup tu....nasi lemak dining hall lepas jogging every friday morning we all rebut dulu. Masa ada ahli D'Kompress tercekik tulang ayam, abis roti budak yg tak makan nasi dikerjakan dgn harapan tulang ayam tu bole gi! Tapi tak gi gi gak! Itu belum coklat budak dorm sebelah lagi.....sampai abis satu chocolat bar dikerjakan!

Bila dah lepas final exam matriks tu....we all berhoneymoon dgn meng'harrassed' rabbit-rabbit yg sek bela. Org dok lepak dlm kelas...we all buat aktibiti luar kelas....belakang sek. Hmm...bila aku tgk balik gambor2 zaman terjal tu....buat aku terpikir....apakah anak2 aku akan buat cam aku gak? hmm..susah nak jawab tu coz dunia dorang maybe lain dari dunia aku time tu. Time tu internet pun lom keluar lagi. Hp apatah lagi??? Ingat lagi time aku tgh asyik mahsyuk ber 'affair' dgn balak aku yg telahpun aku tebang sekian lama.....puas le dok beratur luar dorm tu tunggu turn nak pakai telefon masuk syiling tu. hehehhee......rindu rasanya time tu! Ape cite le mat Ghanu tu skang ni ye? Isk! Gatal pulak nak carik apa jadi kat dia skang!

Itu belom cover part bekas pen and pencils aku kena gantung hidup2 kat pintu belakang kelas aku!!!! Hempeh sungguh bila aku tau siapa punye angkara tu! Keje si D'Zams le pulak! Wakakakka.....apa cite le ngan D'Zams ek? Aku hanya tau cite sorang D'Zams tu je la....dah jadi tokeh petrol stesen kat Kajang hiway!

But...the best part is.....after I left the 'history' for about 8 years......I finally reestablished it back when I tied the knot with the man I used to 'kacau' before. What a memory....and what a history to be cherished tonite! To D'Kompress.....you know I will always treasure our relationship and friendship will remain forever! Woi!!! pjg le post ko nih....ok..ok...nak stop dah! I'm burning my midnight oil long enuff! hehehe.....

Nak dedah rahsia: Aktibiti mengompress ialah memicit dan menyapu ubat jerawat dengan penuh perasaan! Wakakakkaka!!!!! Sorry kalu post aku ni anti klimaks! Aku dpt rasakan korang sure nak dengo hikayat aku ni lebih detail...tapi the rest of the story 'biarlah rahsia' aje.....

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Bukan niatku!

Since Thursday aku rasa tak sedap ati. Puncanya, pasal post aku on Wednesday itu hari la. Agenda aku ketika aku marah telah disalahertikan oleh org lain. Yang benonye...bukan niat aku nak implement agenda tu pun. Saje je nak bagi setan dlm pale ni puas hati.Kan di awal post tu aku dah bagitau....setan dlm pale dok menghasut aku! Tapi time tu aku tak pikir pun padahnya. Bila org lain perceived differently, baru aku sedar yg ayat tak puas hati aku telah mengguris hati org lain yg takde kena mengena dlm ini gambar!

And today....dengan penuh merendah diri, aku nak minta maaf secara terbuka pada dua orang kawan aku yg semesti tau siapa yg aku maksudkan. Yg perasan aku maksudkan dia pun tak kisah le.....kira aku minta maaf juga le.

Isk! macam jiwang karat je aku nih bila tulis in BM. Yg masa aku marah haritu pun, aku tulis in BM....bahse aku terus bunyik cam kasar. Walaupun sebenonye aku tak de niat langsung nak sekasar itu. Takpe lah....yg penting, aku dah apologised. But I really2 hope that those friends that I've mentioned earlier.....will accept my apology with an open heart.

Pada aku, blog aku ni is my sanctuary tapi takde lah confidential sgt sampai cannot be viewed by others. Tapi niat aku berblog is untuk meluahkan apa yg aku rasa, alami besides sharing it with others yg nak share. Including my frustration and my happiness. Teringat aku filem 'Ali Setan 1' yang masa Asmidar marah dgn Ali yg dia conteng2 gambo Ali n panggil Ali 'Beruk'. Sebenarnya, memende tu sume keluar sbb at that second, dia tgh marah n frust dgn Ali. Tapi itu sume hanya kat mulut aje....tak sampai pun kat hati.

Serupa le gak dgn aku time tu. Aku dok pikir yg negatif sampai membawa masalah kat aku sendiri. So, the moral of the story is....sape yg susah? Akakkkkk jugak le! Sorry sekali lagi kat sesapa yg berkenaan ye. Pasni kalau aku nak lepaskan rasa tak puas hati....aku ambik wuduk n mengaji bebanyak. Insya-Allah....

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Gila UNO!

Anakssss aku la ni tgh gile main game card UNO! Itu le dia.....It had been my routine for the past 1 week, playing UNO with my kids. It all started when my hubby bought this game card 8 months back. His pure intention was to stimulate my kids' brain thru memorising. We bought the cards that suited their age and level with the 'winnie the pooh' pics printed on them. At first, the kids were blindly playing the cards (meaning dorang main hentam kromo je lah!) sampai naik komot card tu dibuatnya sebab asyik berebut jek. Last2, my hubby hid the cards somewhere high up on our wardrobe until we were totally forgot about the cards. Just recently, when we moved back to my hometown that I found the cards back.

Well, to occupy the kids time while their papa was away during the weekdays, aku ajor bebudak tu main UNO. Start dgn 'Snap!', 'Matching the numbers' and 'Flipping cards with the same numbers'. Ala...korang sure tau camne nak main kan? And surprisingly, they are good at playing it now! Itu yg jadi ketagih tu. Yang jadi mangsanye...aku le! Adoiii....mana taknye. aku sampai umah after work at around 6pm. Masuk jek umah, itu 3 org sudah kerumun kat pintu lagi. Kakak dah sibuk angkat school bag with her daily tagline ' mama cek homework sarah!'.And I responded, 'ok. Mama sembahyang dulu ok.'

Si Abang will echo whatever statement the sister made. "Mama cek homework syahmi' (eventhough more than often dia takde homework). And I responded my daily tagline to them also. "ok. mama sembahyang dulu ok.' Padahal, dlm pale ni nak kena buat macam2....nak mandi, sembahyang, feed the baby, kemas baju2 yg bibik dah lipat dalam wardrobe, makan and then baru nak cek homework dorang. But right after aku bagi salam...itu 3 org dtg lagi with the same tagline. Cop!cop!cop! mama nak doa dulu le.....

Dah selesai cek homework and ajor sesikit si kakak membaca, we all main UNO. That was the time they've been waiting for actually. Seronok tau main UNO dgn budak cinonet nih. Especially part main snap sbb sometimes dorang lambat snap. (aku tukang turunkan cards tu) So, terpaksa le aku tggu sampai ada yg perasan nak snap. Aku suka tgk cara cinonet aku yg 3rd tu main. eventhough dia baru 2+ yrs tapi cekap! kalau main snap, tangan dia mesti dah siap angkat nak snap and dia akan positioned herself right in front of my nose! U know what I mean or not? Tu sbb takut tak sempat snap le tuh! Kadang tu terlalu cekap sampai ter'snap' btg idung aku. Itu sebab le aku kata dia cekap! wakakakaka.......

We played for almost 1 hour and when the time set 9pm...I buldozed them to my mother's room for bedtime. I have to polarised myself coz kalau tak, dorang takkan tido on time (nak memain lagi) and esok seksa giler nak suh bangun for schools.

Well, since dorang dah tau and enjoy playing UNO, aku nak ajor main chess pulak. Chess set tu dah beli 6 months ago, tapi dok simpan je sbb dorang suka sepah-sepahkan. I think, now is about time for me to introduce chess seriously. But this isn't the kind of chess with the boring black and white color....it's the kind yg ada all Disney's cartoon characters. Very interesting and attractive. My hubby bought it from the 7 eleven shop near our house in Sentul. To those yg tgh pikir game yg interesting yet educational....can try these two games.

Fooh! What a long post. Tido dulu le...gotta get up early tomorrow coz will be flying to Kota Bharu for a site meeting. huarghhh! letihnye badan....
Papa! please dun make me pregnant again ok. I'm very2 tide up now!Four is enuff!!!

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Ketulusan hati...Anuar Zain.


cintaku tak berdusta.tak mengenal ingkar.tak kenal nestapa.cintaku hanya indah.hanya bahagia.untuk selamanya...apa yang kurasakan ini.persembahan untuk dirimu.kau dengarkan kasihku.mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu.tak mengenal puitis.hanya tulusnya hati.mencintaimu.tak mengenal ragu.
keyakinan hatiku.hanya untuk dirimu selalu....
cintaku tak berdusta.tak mengenal ingkar.tak kenal nestapa.tak ada seribu janji.hanya bahagia untuk selamanya.apa yang ku rasakan ini.
persembahan untuk dirimu.kau dengarkan kasihku.mencintaimu tak mengenal waktu.
tak mengenal puitis.hanya tulusnya hati.
mencintaimu.tak mengenal ragu.keyakinan hatiku.hanya untuk dirimu selalu...apa yang ku rasakan ini.persembahan untuk dirimu.kau dengarkan kasihku.mencintaimu.tak mengenal waktu.tak mengenal puitis.hanya tulusnya hati.mencintaimu.tak mengenal ragu.keyakinan hatiku.hanya untuk dirimu selalu...